As I was walking home from class today I was thinking about a conversation I had with a friend at lunch the day before about how sometimes we look up to people as if they have everything all together, when in reality, they’re just as messed up and confused as we are.
…and I realized that a lot of people this weekend probably got the impression that I have it all figured out.
Senior guy. Bible study leader. In the band. Beard.
…which kind of makes me want to get in front of everyone at Primetime and simply say:
“There is absolutely NOTHING in my life that I have completely figured out.”
But I think that’s right where God wants me.
In less than two months, I went from having “everything figured out” to being completely back at square one. Humbling.
If I know anything, it’s that God has a funny way of changing our plans or stripping them away completely. But that doesn’t mean that it wouldn’t be at least a little helpful to be given a hint as to where He might want to take me, say…within the next year or so.
That’s kind of rapidly approaching…might be helpful.
In some ways I feel like you could take my constant complaining about my lack of direction and plug in this verse from 2 Corinthians 12:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”
Do I really believe that this place of vulnerability is right where God wants me? Do I believe that by me being “weak,” His “dunamis” power is able to do miraculous, mighty works?
…or do I simply believe that He is able only to “get me through” these times of weakness? That His grace is sufficient to lend a hand until I’m able to get back on my own two feet and figure things out for myself again?
Seeing how my plans have fared lately, I guess I’ll try and find comfort in the fact that it’s in someone else’s hands this time...
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
2 comments:
You know, I have to say that I haven't ever really read your blogspot before, but I also have to say that I've never really actually talked to you before.
I guess that I just want to say, "Congratulations! Welcome to life as it really is."
This blogpost was a great reminder for me. You see, this is the place I have been in for like a year and a half now but I think I had fallen to a place opposite of you, where I thought I was absolutely nothing because I didn't have a plan or any clue whatsoever what was going on. I think that I actually thought God had forgotten about me. Silly, I know.
But the fact is, you're right. I need to rest and be excited about where he has me...not just content.
Thanks for the reminder, Chris. :)
at least you still have the beard.
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