You got it together? 'Cause I don't...

As I was walking home from class today I was thinking about a conversation I had with a friend at lunch the day before about how sometimes we look up to people as if they have everything all together, when in reality, they’re just as messed up and confused as we are.

…and I realized that a lot of people this weekend probably got the impression that I have it all figured out.

Senior guy. Bible study leader. In the band. Beard.

…which kind of makes me want to get in front of everyone at Primetime and simply say:

“There is absolutely NOTHING in my life that I have completely figured out.”

But I think that’s right where God wants me.

In less than two months, I went from having “everything figured out” to being completely back at square one. Humbling.

If I know anything, it’s that God has a funny way of changing our plans or stripping them away completely. But that doesn’t mean that it wouldn’t be at least a little helpful to be given a hint as to where He might want to take me, say…within the next year or so.

That’s kind of rapidly approaching…might be helpful.

In some ways I feel like you could take my constant complaining about my lack of direction and plug in this verse from 2 Corinthians 12:

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

Do I really believe that this place of vulnerability is right where God wants me? Do I believe that by me being “weak,” His “dunamis” power is able to do miraculous, mighty works?

…or do I simply believe that He is able only to “get me through” these times of weakness? That His grace is sufficient to lend a hand until I’m able to get back on my own two feet and figure things out for myself again?

Seeing how my plans have fared lately, I guess I’ll try and find comfort in the fact that it’s in someone else’s hands this time...

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”

Sometimes I Wish

Sometimes I wish my life was different, a little easier maybe.

I wish that I could just go to class, study, and waste numerous hours playing video games, watching movies, and playing guitar instead of feeling like at any moment, my last ounce of strength is going to expire as I tirelessly do my best to make Christ famous.

I wish that I could pursue MY dreams and MY goals instead of what God has planned for me.

I wish that I could get a degree in business or something practical, settle down, and get a job after graduating so that my friends and family would acknowledge and be proud of my “success” instead of feeling like I never live up to others’ expectations for what my life should look like.

But God’s called me to something bigger. Instead of being just another ordinary guy leading an insignificant life, He desires to use me to do EXTRAORDINARY things and to lead a life of SIGNIFICANCE.

So I’ll continue to press on. I’ll continue to do my best to lay down my ambitions and give up my desire for approval from others. And in the end it will be worth it. I only get one shot at this, so why leave anything on the table?